Every month I go through a total upheaval of my thoughts and emotions. Some months aren’t as crazy as others but this month is already turning out to be hell.
I have PMDD which causes my body to adversely react to the hormonal changes my body faces on a monthly basis. I suffer from extreme pain in my back and abdomen, headaches, mood swings, anxiety attacks, and I break out in random bouts of tears at the drop of a hat.
It has always caused issues in my life. I end up taking things out on the wrong people in the heat of the moment. My responses to things are not easily controlled either. And on top of it, my reactions make me feel even worse about myself and my condition.
I do not qualify for assistance, and have no insurance. Many insurances do not cover these health issues either. For almost a year I was on medication for this issue. I was lucky enough the clinic I went to could sample me meds. When they stopped I was left in the cold, as my meds cost a few hundred dollars.
What in this situation can I do to help myself? Why is it people cannot get access to medicine and services they need to function, or even live.
In the big picture my problems are small in comparison to others who also lack access to health care. We need to realize that many many people would be able to better function for themselves and society had they been able to receive what they need.
The damage in my life has been done. Even today I think I lost a friend due to my over-reaction to a situation. I don’t know how or if I can fix it. And its impossible for most others to understand why it happens, or that I can’t control chemical responses in my brain.